This weekend was long & exhausting.

On Friday I worked till 5:30, but it was payday & since I haven't OFFICIALLY transferred locations I had to go to my old store to get my check (about 45 minutes) away. It was cool seeing my old coworkers & afterwards I stopped & chilled with my dad for about an hour. I left around 8ish because my friend Antwon wanted to go to this bar/club in Chinatown. The bar was really cool, it was reggae/underground hiphop night. I met this really cute filipino dude named Ivan who bought me 2 drinks :). Afterwards we went to this bomb taco truck by Antwon's house. 

( Ivan!  )

Yesterday I worked till like 6 & then I went grocery shopping. Tell me why I spend damned near $100 on groceries?! Ugh. Thats what I get for letting my fridge get empty like that. Bryan came over & I made tacos & we watched Cruel Intentions 2. Then we did some grown up stuff & were like chilling & talking in the dark & I accidentally told him that I let my exbf spend the night shortly after we "broke" up. He was so mad. He was mad bc I wasnt completely honest about it when we first talked about it a few weeks ago (when it happened) & because it was so soon after we " broke" up. I felt bad, but whatever, he got over it. 

To be honest, idk how much longer Bryan & I will continue to do..whatever we're doing. I mean, I'm having fun, but idk, I honestly mostly think of Bryan as a friend now. I mean he's become one of my best guy friends, I tell him like everything. I wouldn't MIND trying to see if it works again as a couple, but I don't see it going there again & I'm wondering if I should back out before things get complicated & we end up ruining EVERYTHING. Like this morning he was all trying to get some & I was all like "ehh i'm not in the mood let's go out & get some breakfast", i didn't think anything of it at the time, but later on after breakfast we were chilling in bed & he was talking about how he never just initiates sex or w/e without being like "so do you want to do it ?" (which i freaking HATE) bc he doesnt want to get shut down & i was like uhh when have i ever shut you down? & he was like THIS MORNING! & I was thinking like damn, I am usually a fiend so that's probably a sign that whatever I felt for him physically is waning a bit. I mean, we ended up doing it & it was cool, but idk. We'll see I guess.

I kicked Bryan out at about 12:30 because I had work from 1-9p :(. I got 33 hours this wk which is REALLY good. My next check is going to be NICE & I need it too. With groceries, gas, bills & rent to be paid, I didn't end up getting any of the stuff that I had planned on getting with this check :/ However, I'm visiting my mom on Wednesday & Thursday so I'll probably take some pics on her mac.

Oh & for those of you who were wondering, I never did talk to Patrick. I called him Thursday night & he didn't answer. I think it's strange that we had such a nice wknd & then he up & disappeared, but I don't have the time or energy to be dissecting dude's trifling actions. If something DID happen & he IS interested then I guess I'll hear him whenever he handles whatever is going on, but honestly, I really feel like there is no excuse to stand me up like that. Unless this fool got into a car accident  & broke all of his fingers so he cant pick up a phone & call then I'm not even trying to hear it.

Anyways, I havent sat down & relaxed since like Thursday & I'm exhausted. Hope y'all had a great wknd :)